February 2012
54 posts
I didn't mean to fall in love
But I did.
And you didn’t mean to love me back but I know you did.
Don’t say you didn’t love me back ‘cause you know you did.
No, you didn’t mean to love me back.
But you did.
January 2012
74 posts
Dear Lord
Please let me finish this day still employed.
Give me patience because I really can’t handle jerks today.
I just want to call in instead of going to work.
I just want to put the covers back over my head and try again tomorrow, but I’m going to get up, put on a smile, and hope I don’t burst into tears at work.
“Your whisper may sway the weak, but when I speak it roars the sea.”
—Oh Sleeper (via screamtheprayer)
My family needs to decide.
Either I’m an adult with all the responsibilities that go along with that or I’m a child to be dictated to.
I was told that I had to grow up instead of basking in the glow of being the baby of the family. It sucks, but I’m trying. It becomes difficult when you cut me off at the knees.
Adult or child. Just pick one so I know what process I need to go through to make decisions.
The End (Demo)
Ellie Goulding
We’ve only ever kissed lying down
We’ve only ever touched
When there’s no one else around
I can be elusive
If you want me to
I’m not being intrusive
I just wish I knew the truth
As to why
I wait for you
Longer than the average person would
And why
I think about you
More than I think one should
Amazing how just seeing you can completely ruin my day. You didn’t even see me, but I saw you and every feeling I try to forget when it comes to you comes rushing back. I will probably be crying myself to sleep tonight.
Lame.
Do you know how awesome it is to love going to school? I am loving every second of my Baking class.
Do this.
- A. Why my last relationship ended.
- B. Favourite band.
- C. Who I like and why I like them.
- D. Hardest thing I’ve ever been through.
- E. My best friend.
- F. My favourite movie.
- G. Sexual orientation.
- H. Do I smoke/drink?
- I. Have any tattoos or piercings?
- J. What I want to be when I get older.
- K. Relationship with my parents.
- L. One of my insecurities.
- M. Virgin or not?
- N. Favourite place to shop at?
- O. My eye colour.
- P. Why I hate school.
- Q. Relationship status as of right now.
- R. Favourite song at the moment.
- S. A random fact about myself.
- T. Age I get mistaken for.
- U. Where I want to be right now.
- V. Last time I cried.
- W. Concerts I’ve been to.
- X. What would you do if (…)?
- Y. Do you want to go to college.
- Z. How are you?
Chilling with my friend, Stephany is always a good decision.
"Even through this pain, I will feel again. Even through these tears, I will love again. I will not fall from grace" -- Times of Grace
How quickly I forget that I am Yours.
I’m sorry, Lord.
I adore my best friend.
I was supposed to get my Oh, Sleeper tattoo in December, but I used the money instead to pay for her to go to Texas with me to Unsilent Night because As Cities Burn is one of the bands we always blast when we’re together and I couldn’t imagine seeing them with anyone else. I have so many memories of riding around town, screaming their music at the top of our lungs with her.
Anywhoo, she’s paying me the money back and since she didn’t get me a Christmas present yet, she’s going to pay the difference between what she owes me and how much my tattoo costs as my present because she knows how much I was looking forward to my tattoo. I’ll be getting it when she comes to spend the weekend with me and go see the Wonder Years.
So stoked!
I feel so ugly.
I know this is a lie because I am fearfully and wonderfully made, but knowing it and feeling it are two different things.
Don’t mind my pity party over here. It’ll pass.
Lord, I know what Your Word says about this matter.
Please strike all thoughts of straying from what I know You would want out of my head.
It seems like Satan is coming at me from every direction and trying to get me to defy You. I am Yours, Lord. I am a princess because You are the King of Kings. Please don’t let me forget that.
Thy will be done, Lord, Thy will be done.
First day of culinary school
And the teacher is 15 minutes late.
Lame.
I'm so nervous.
I start culinary tomorrow. Ah…
I feel like my heart is going to burst out of my chest. I’m so nervous, but excited. If I can get past the first day, then I’ll be okay.
Play
That awkward moment when I'm religious...
re·li·gion [ri-lij-uhn]
noun
1. a set of beliefs concerning the cause, nature, and purpose of the universe, especially when considered as the creation of a superhuman agency or agencies, usually involving devotional and ritual observances, and often containing a moral code governing the conduct of human affairs.
Why exactly do we disagree here, fellow Christians?
Good to know I’m not the only person who was rubbed the wrong way by that video.
I'm all signed up for classes!
I have to take two gen eds, but I’m stoked for my baking class even if it is on Saturday at 8 in the morning.
I thought I could live in your arms.
And spend every moment I had with you
Stay up all night with the stars
Confess all the faith that I had in you
To late, I’m sure and lonely
It’s another night, another dream wasted on you
Just be here now against me
You know the words so sing along for me, Baby
For heaven’s sake I know you’re sorry
But you won’t stop crying
This anniversary may never be the same
Inside I hope you know I’m dying
With my heart beside me
In shattered pieces that may never be replaced
And if I died right now you’d never be the same
I thought with a month of apart
Together would find us an opening
And moonlight would provide the spark
And that I would stumble across your key
Or break down the door to your heart
Forever could see us not you and me
And you’d help me out of the dark
I gave my heart as an offering
